Growing
Can I be as strong as you say I am?
I know I have strength after all I've made it through
But to let other's in, I don't know if I can
They always abuse me or use me or hurt me,
I shut them out, I don't know what else to do
I built a wall so long ago, inside my mind means nothing
I'm glad you push me because it makes me better
It makes me scared when you say to trust you
I don't know what you want from me and I know you don't get it
You say don't let one man make all the other's pay but
That's not how it is. I would love for one man not to do the same
It makes me nervous to tell you anything about myself
But you promised not to tell or use it against me
So I'm learning how to trust you
Something I thought I'd never do
Knowing I'm gonna have to pay for this
Despite all your promises
Now even though you're moving away,
I know this friendship will be mine in the end
Thank you for cracking the shell
Thank you for helping me grow
I might not be as strong as you say
But I'm growing because you showed me how
And the best thing is you're not moving now
My new best friend is here for me
But don't talk about marriage please
I love you and I want it to stay that way.
Sex only complicates things
And marriage is hell on earth
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