God Spoke To Me 1
As I write this, I start feeling emotional.
It was something that happened to me that
I will never forget.
Growing up in the inner city in a part of
NY. It was very tough. You had to be tough
to survive the onslaught of gangs and bully's.
The memories I have of that time and
that lifestyle of always watching my back,
and your brother's back is always there.
I guess in a way it made me who I am. I
went from being a fighter to a caring person.
Protecting those that were weak.
My brother was thin. I was worried about
him being weak. I didn't want anything to
happen to him because of his size. Through
the years while living in the city I somehow
had developed a rough attitude toward my
brother to toughen him up. This, believe it or
not was because I loved him.
I wanted him to fend for himself. I wanted
him to be strong. Through the years I did
not realize that I kept in this treatment
toward him even when we moved to a nicer
area to live in. Much more peaceful than the
city life.
I realized how tough I was with him when
he bought an album he was proud of and I
said to him, " Why do you listen to that crap?"
My girlfriend at the time said Michael do
you realize how you talk to your brother. At
that moment I realized how I was treating my
brother and I felt. Horrible. I loved my brother.
That night I felt tremendous guilt. In bed
feeling sad. I really don't know if I was still
awake or if I had gone to sleep.
I saw myself in an elevator going up. It
went to the very top. The elevator door opened
up and I saw a beautiful light. As I stepped off
the elevator I felt a peace. It was like all my
burdens were taken away. I never knew how
much tension was in my life until it was taken
away by this light.
Every time it pulsed I felt the Lord's love. It
consumed me. It was awesome. I also felt a
super intelligence that I understood everything.
It is really difficult to put into words.
I went toward the light. The Lord communicated
to me not to worry about my brother. He would
protect him. He showed me three pictures of a
champion bodybuilder. He also told me that I was
going to be called for a job that I wanted and
had applied for, two years before. He said they
would call me tomorrow.
He then said. " I have given you the Power to
love. The Power to love is a great power. I have
experienced the Power to love and I love the
Power to love and that is why I have given you
the Power to love. So go out and love."
Michael Tor
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