Gayboy Child
To emerge as my mother's son
but heatedly defined by not my father's wanted one,
or child of either gender
much less elements of both
male and female
humane with divine regenerativity.
To know I could not win his love,
that any admiration would grow silent
begrudged
rather than recreationally owned
and laughingly proclaimed.
By coincidental over-population
within my family's multigenerational home,
no room for me
except this marginalizing manger,
a son with two parents
but only one capable of love for him as is
whenever and whyever delivered to birth
as selfless care.
Clothed
yet terrified of chronic naked need
for a gift I could not
should not
would not earn from Him,
to sip his not-not yet cup of Life,
as Death.
Messianic son
brought into Earth's carnation
to co-redeem his Father's unhealthy insufficient love
sustained through virginal milk,
timeless manna of Mother Earth's co-passion.
If Buddha brain notices bicameral enlightenment,
Cosmic Christ belongs to ProGenitor SunGod
personal enough to sing intimate love songs of synthesis
psalms in my ears and eyes
and taste and touch
so I can ring them back,
regenerating language
as co-active love.
I and my SunGod Father,
One (0)-soul bilateral resonant
EcoLogical Ego-path,
becoming EcoGoal
to super-size mutually therapeutic vocations
through dipolar co-relational SunMan Bodhisattva definition,
zen-silent RePresence,
EarthTribe's PostMillennial Revolution,
ticking
ticking
ticking
ticking time's robust resonant ReSolutions,
Love as Bicameral Co-op Enculturation,
optimizing ReGenerative Great Transition Climate Health.
Each of Earth's RNA/DNA Tribes
come through SunGod Father,
sun's light pre- and post-regenerator
of each life's 4-seasoned birth through decomposition
back into time's 0-squared transparently dark light,
EcoPresent-Gravitating Elation Consciousness,
equipoised surfing between SunGod's inhale
and exhale of timeless BlackHole
eternally unfolding Exterior Landscape's Universe
through MotherEarth's embryonic co-redemptive senses.
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