For Me
Letting go never makes it easier,
And with hope confusion only builds
I opened my heart and I'm too terrified to let it close
My walls took so long to fall
My mind tells me to rebuild and start new
A impenetrable wall must be made, just to not let this world put me in my grave
But my heart loved and was free
Love you found me just to remind me of everything I will never be?
The words circle in my head, It's just not there anymore
I felt my soul as it tore
God, haven't I lost enough?
Hasn't this world taught me not to trust for too long
The feeling of knowing it'll never be the same won't be shaken
How could I be so blind, to think I could change your mind
But when my world falls down, I swear I'll run
Yet I stand still like my heart is holding a load gun
I swore I would never let you go, But like a childhood dream
I thought if I wanted it, then it would be
All I wanted was for you to love me
The fairy tails I read, lied to me, They swore that love was all you would need
The darkness rolled into my happy land
As I realize I really did loose my man
And I hold on to the hope that I hate like it'll save me from my desolate fate
Just let this be, and we will see
But with all my pain and all my loss I feel my love drift away
And like countless times before everyone leaves and they don't know why
My tears consume me, and I hate myself for believing in love
My anger kept me alive, and you stripped that away so I knew that you were the one that would stay
So now I am left in no man's land
Not knowing to let go, But praying and begging you will come save me
I can't make you love me again, But as you walked away
I realize that there wasn't a single day I thought you wouldn't be with me
I thought I knew heart break I thought I could handle pain
But through this I see, That I was a broken me
You put me together, you raised me higher then I've ever been
And the fall from there has been my worse
I know I'm a shell of me, because you showed me how to be free
So if hope dies, Even through my relentless tries
I will never love again, I can't take proving my father right, I can't take this pain
It took true happiness to understand true pain
And if I make it through this still sane
I'll never do this to myself again, For this is the worlds biggest sin, To watch someone walk away that was the only one you let in
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