For Love 19
i said goodbye to u
i locked all of the memories away with the others
i gave in to the emptiness
and i was completely incomplete
6 days and i thought i was safe
and then u came right back
let me beg and plead to keep u here
even without ur love
u are the only one who could bring me here
take me by the hand and lead me with spoken good intention
and then leave me desolate at the end of ur road
just staring thru the tears as u go away again
and i should just prepare myself for the days ahead
when i know u have gone away, and i am not in ur eyes anymore
and i remember why im here
and why u need me when u do
i am only the skin that holds this ruined heart
i am only the eyes that u forget cry for u
i am only the body that turns u on
i am only the want and desire of ur selfish ways
winter is on its way again
and it will be short days and long nights
cold and alone, curled up here alone
and always waiting for u.
maybe sleeping u away was the best thing i ever did
and i dreamed u back into existence
and here i am stuck in love and being ur whore
just like ive been since the first man looked my way.
ill just sit here thru the months and try to remain empty
without expectations, without feelings of my own
and when u come to me, on rare nights when u need a release
ill put the smile on my face and the sparkle in my eyes
the whole time ill be hoping...
to get ur love back
to earn ur hearts attention
and have u all alone.
i was once an irreplaceable love, the only thing u needed
and we would watch the other sleep and be amazed in the morning
and time was never an issue, and life was a possibility
and u said that there was nothing that would keep u away...
well im no longer ur little jewel, am i?
i am no longer the goddess, the woman of ur dreams...
i am the mistake that u cant get rid of, the girl u dont need anymore
and i am the girl u keep hurting with ur ways.
i dont know what to do with this anymore
i wish i could hate u too, and i wish i had also given up the fight for us
but my heart and head are still all absorbed by u
and u will never ever know.
u are still the man i love forever
u are still the one i want for life
the only one who touches me
its all just a memory, but one i cant delete
and i would still fight this war alone
if it werent killing me every battle
but the love will never die
and u will never ever know.
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