Fear of Affection
I’m nervous, feelings of rejection running through my head.
But this is what I wanted, or should I hang on to hope instead.
Too many days have gone by, too many feelings left out to dry.
So why does my heart hang onto you, why can’t my senses get rid of you.
That intoxicating fragrance you wear, your gentle touch and powerful soul piercing stare.
My heart is telling me to call, but my mind is telling me to walk on by.
So what is going on, in you I see a vision of my future, in you I see my queen.
Am I confusing a vision with a dream?
Whose voice is that telling me it wasn’t meant to be?
Am I afraid of that possibility, that meeting you wasn’t destiny?
I’ve been trying to make excuses on why we couldn’t be, but because of you my heart has
taken lead, it’s not my fault maybe you shouldn’t of planted your seed.
Too late to remove it now it took root deep and sprouted a field, a field open, wild and willing
to run free.
So what am I supposed to do, I’m still nervous and these words aren’t helping me.
I’ve been holding my breath too long, crossing my fingers, laying back on the ropes waiting
for you to swing.
But all I have been doing is dodging an answer that will set my heart free, and allow this
caged bird to sing.
I can’t stand the pain much longer, I learned it hurts more not to know.
How hard can rejection hit me, how hard of a blow.
I’ll have to dust myself off, I will have to move on.
I think I better let it go cause it looks like another love TKO.
It time, I’ve got to know for sure.
I’m so nervous I can feel my heart pounding through my chest.
Because I am not only nervous that you will say no, but that you will respond with yes.
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