Falling
~ Falling ~
I was a little girl with so many dreams
Even through the worst of times
I kept my chin up and let
My dreams keep me alive
I was okay
Until my dreams got crushed
And my worst fear came true
~ Falling ~
With no dreams to lean on
As I started to go throw the changes
I was a teenager
With a huge chip on my shoulder
If you weren’t with me you were against me
I had many friends
Yet most of them were superficial
I never let anyone get too close.
I was too afraid of
~ Falling ~
As the years went by I slowly came into my own
I became a woman
With many scars hidden inside
Yet it seemed like one word shined brightly on my head
SUCKER
As so many times I thought I had found that one
Someone only to find out
That they weren’t that person I wanted them to be
They were only taking advantage of me
I didn’t understand why
I seemed to keep
~ Falling ~
Finally I moved back closer to home
I found an apartment and made it my home
I was doing well on my own
Then I met You
First we were friends
For three years our friendship grew and grew
Then we both admitted
The feelings we had for one another were
Way more than friends
So we began to date
Then a few short months later we moved in together
And before we knew it
Our wedding was here
I started to feel secure
I was starting to get over my fear of
~ Falling ~
Then boom the bomb dropped and I caught
A glimpse of someone I never knew you to be
While you never raised a hand at me
You never did anything to hurt me physically
It’s your words though
That cut right through me
And it became apparent that we were never meant to be
More than friends
Looking back I can see so many signs
That before I couldn’t see
And if I had known then what I know now
I would never have begged you to stay
The first time you wanted to walk out that door.
Now you are gone and here I am
Moving on
At first I didn’t think I could
I thought my world was ending
I couldn’t see that a new chapter in my life was just
Beginning
And while I will always love you
That love has changed
It is not as deep anymore
As I am
~ Falling ~
Out of love with you
By: Jean Shular
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