Epileptic and Unloved
Epileptic and unloved
He was my perfect ,Yes my heart beat
Two years together ,Being each other's Comfort
Embellished in rings, Rings of true commitment
That's what I thought , Atleast with all my logic
Only to realise after a couple of decoys
That it was not a thing, not a thing at all
But A brief and pseudo wasteful engagement
I received this wedding card, With him as the groom
A spike of fear jerked me from my slumber
I woke up in the pompai nightmare
Like a voters roll, I checked my name
on that wedding invitation,it was someone's
then Rex was barking at me hysterically
I was careening like a log from a hill top,with white froth fuzzing from my mouth
I think that's when it started,that was my first episode
I couldn't tell anyone ,atleast not together with the heart break
What an embarrassment!
Then I tried to move on, I thought I did ,I met Den
He become my panacia, Soft caring and understanding
Then the episodes came again, So intense so vicious
Happening anywhere, The first was in a lecture
The other one walking home, and the third on Den's birthday party
This one I guess was the mother chauffeur
Walking me through out of his love,
He was byme all this time,Helping with sundry bills,
I swear he was never to leave me, thoughts of a naive heart
Only to find him with another woman in his arms
And telling me he was afraid I will die in his arms
Not him only even my friends
I turn into a loner in my new world,
Fear keeps tomenting me, day and night
What can I do other than waiting for true love
That is if of course it exist,But whatever the case that's my hope
What would you hope for when epileptic and unloved.
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