Doubts
I draw pictures on the wall to express my emotions
I dream about death so I can feel alive
I sing lullabies to calm all of the commotion
I cry myself to sleep to feel all right
I distance myself to protect my heart
And lie through my teeth to get people to leave me alone
Yet I still get run over and torn apart
Bruised up skin and fractures in my bones
The joy I once found playing games from my childhood
Don’t make me smile as big as it did
The creativity I had when I made my first imaginary friend
Is something that I will always miss
I’ve grown up now and everything is different
I didn’t become the princess I told myself I would be
This life came with a heart that was bent
And a false hope that I was taught to believe
I didn’t become the one I saw myself to be
For I draw pictures on a canvas that no one knows about
And write poems that are filled with my feelings
And forever I will have my doubts
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