Love Poem: Dead and Gone

Dead and Gone

Shattered, broken...Gone,
Just disappeared into mid-air!
Now I start to feel alone,
Telling everybody that it's not fair,
Holding a grudge against everyone I know,
Because that one person had to go,
Knowing I’m growing too old to cry,
Not a kid anymore and someone died,
I can't cry everyday like I want too,
But that person’s death sticks to my heart like glue,
It hurts badly; don't know what to do now,
I have not a clue if I am angry or sad,
It's these tests, tribulations and trails,
Why does everything have to happen to me?
These things are nothing that I want to see,
Family, loved ones, why is life in such fast motion,
I never asked for such destruction,
I want to grieve but my mind is telling me no,
My eyes, my body keeps telling me yes,
I just wish the pain in my heart would go,
Because right now there is more than destruction... 
My life is scattered everything seems to be a mess,
I want nothing more, but something less,
Like a best man, right hand man,
Just a real true friend,
Or a shoulder to cry on...
Because I can't take back what’s already gone.