Days Like Today
Somedays I feel so low, like I'm drowning and can't get air
My chest hurts and regardless of how deep the breathe It's not enough air
Suffocating in misery and sinking into thoughts of inadequacy
Pondering if I can make it another day or will I succumb to my self hate
Tears stream down my cheeks as I lay alone in despair
She hates me even after making the many sacrifices requested
Treated like a leper, quarantined.
No touching or kissing, only hugs are allowed.
Pushing on and faking it to protect our kin
The ignore and disregard
Is this the life I want, or imagined even
Distraught is not strong enough a word.
How can I move forward when my love has already moved on
Isolated. Abandoned. Despised. Forsaken.
Wondering where it went wrong
Today begins another nightmare
And again I ask, am I strong enough to make it
If the good lord looks down upon me and believes me unworthy of his blessings,
I suppose I'm only worthy of mischief and should end it all
If I wake up tomorrow I've made it another day.
But I refuse to be the darkness in my life,
because in my soul I shine like diamonds do
If I get out of this rough, I can expose it
maybe I can allow others to see my inner beauty too.
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