Darkness of Me
Some loved ones of mine
Have seen me trying to
Turn back the hands of time
But right here lays my heart
Completely on the line
And in seeing and knowing
Just where I’ve been lately
How far I’ve now came
Those same loved ones would say
In these moments of my life
I’m in a darker place
The emotions are much rawer
With deeper intensity and extremely stronger
This is because I’m afraid what I’ve been feeling
For so long now is hopelessly wrong
My days I don’t want to face
And yes I’ve tried a different pace
Only to find myself falling since I have no grace
I’ve had the leather and taken the lace
To think I may have to throw in the towel
Walk away from this race
My pain is never ending
My heart is not yet mending
What do I do now?
This is not something I can let be
That’s just not me
Can’t you see
I’m in this way to deep
My loved ones think I may have lost my way
Thing is I feel the same
I fear it everyday
There’s no one but me to blame
We had the spark years ago
I believe we still have the flame
Even after all the pain
We over came in our lives
And all the rain
That has poured out of our eyes
And I’ll still be standing here
Through all the pain and the tears
Oh God please let him hear my cries
My loved ones pray
That I’ll get through this okay
And that soon I’ll be shown the way
Have my hearts desire
But whatever the end finds itself to be
My soul will never tire of the memories of you and me
You will always be here inside
My feelings I can’t any longer hide
Away from anyone especially myself
Whatever the future holds
For each of us
I hope you know I will always
Miss and love you very much
Even if I can never again have your touch
I know, understand and yes I see
There are those moments when I feel like I can’t even breathe
I really do need to be able to fly free
And save myself from this darkness of me
Eventually
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