Control
I've found myself screaming in the night
I'm always crying out your name
Then when I wake in the dawns early light
My life here is yet still the same
It's an endless fight
With these feelings I cannot tame
Yes those moments, memories, and all the fantasies you are so deep inside my soul
From every waking hour to the dark of night over me they have control
I'm the one here with whom is left emotionally so helpless and hopeless
All this love I still feel for you in my heart is a door that never closes
I can't get out I'm in this way to far and so extremely deep
Yet from my eyes tears very rarely seem to seep
Even through all my pain that I still feel constantly from the tears I'm somewhat numb
I'm getting stronger because of it open up your eyes wide and see who I've become
But at the same time I'm still week because I get lost inside my own mind
The memories steal from me sweet time
The sweet and precious time with you that should be mine
Those moments they won't let me let you go
So therefore over me you are the only one who will ever have complete and total control
And yet still that is what you seem to continue to fight
Spread your wings and let your heart take flight
You can't stop these feelings for me
Anymore than I can stop mine for you
You very much know it's true
For if we could it would've already been done
Instead we are left standing in love without a gun
It's been said true love is suicide
Leaves ones heart and soul with nowhere to hide
I'm the one you can't let go
I'm the one who is deep down inside your heart and soul
Over you I'm the one who has control
...now it's time for you to see it
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