Love Poem: Confused
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Written by: Holly Knoles

Confused

He says yes But I say no He says stay But I say go He says wait But I wait for my fate He's away But I am here My hearts bleeding With no opportunity to sear The smile appears Then it fades My eyesight is blurred My mind is so dazed The emotions they run wild Like divorce papers sprawled and unfiled Always casting me out Then reeling me in No matter what I do I can't win My nephews and nieces are all that I really care about Sometimes with all people I want to scream and shout The smell of alcohol and meth burns my nose The bloody, blackened tears just flow My heart's in impound Too costly to fix His and my emotions, just don't mix The tow truck came and shipped my heart To a tow-yard called "Broken Heart Mart" No one wants to pay, it costs too much Everyone makes excuses and such and such I'm tired of not finding a way I'm tired of the games guys play We've invested three years at best Through thick and thin and awful tests Love's never forgotten or lost It's always rediscovered no matter what the cost I know he'll hike every trail I know he'll climb every rock I know he'll park any boat At any shifting dock Just to get to me I know he'd travel the world 5 times over Just to spend one night with me To explain it more easier, I know he's in love with me But sometimes I run out of options to spare Sometimes I truly think he just doesn't care Now he talks of starting a life With a baby involved and me being his wife The first 5 years are the hardest yet Like a drama show starting on a staging set What will I say, knowing our past? How can I find out if we're going to last? Where are the answers To ten-thousand questions Where is my professor To teach me love sessions Can I truly say to myself That I love him, no doubt Will I lie to myself to make it be true Baby, can I honestly say, "I'll start a life with you?" You may have been sober from alcohol and meth for 3 weeks But it will surely take longer to mend my heart And make me go weak in my knees Like you used to So grant me this wish, that I ask of thee Do you really want to start your life with me?