Conditional Love
You say you love me
Like a ticket to get what you want
You use your lips like a key
To enter me and get all that you please
Then leave me
And don’t return till you feel it’s necessary
I am you gas station
You seem to think I am cheap gas
But I am wroth so much more then that
But my insecurities kept me from moving on
They kept me from finding someone new
Because I wanted your false love
It didn’t matter to me that you only came when you were in need
You called me you girl just to keep me slightly happy
And it was working
I believed in your games and lies
I ignored all the signs
Hoping one day
My body might make you truly love me
Truly want me
But it didn’t work
I was always just your lost puppy
Looking for scraps you were willing to give me
I gave 100%
While you only gave 20
But I didn’t care
All I wanted was to hear the words
You so easily said
I let you play with my emotions
I let my heart get broken
And I stood there in pain waiting for the day you could finally say you loved me
I mean truly love me
Was that too much to ask for?
I just wanted you to give me half of what I offered you
And yet you were incapable of doing that
I died inside
But that was the only way I could break free
From the prison you trapped me in
I no longer what you hand-me downs
Relationships are a give and take process
But you took so much it was no longer even a relationship
I was your store
And you got everything for free
But I’m taking it all back
I was foolish for ever loving you
For ever thinking you cared
But now you have to find another store to steal from
Another gas station
Because mine are closed down
I’m through
With loving someone who refuses to love me back
Because they’re to busy loving others
I’m through with you
And you conditional love
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