Love Poem: Competitions In Disregard
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Written by: Gerald Dillenbeck

Competitions In Disregard

Am I unhealthy and unsafe oppressed,
suppressed,
repressed,
right-brain negatively depressed?

Not really all that:
competitively left-brain impressive,
first through last impression 
newsworthy,
enticingly marketable,
profitably commercial,
slickly corporate,
predatively intelligent

More camouflaged
unnoticed and undefined
unrefined
and, frankly, perhaps unstable

Because of my environmental circumstances?
as liberal lovers
would have failing to ego-thrive anthrosupremacists
monoculturally privileged
and multiculturally misunderstood
underprivileged
ego-shunned
and Othered

And/Or

Am I health/safety oppressed
because of my personal
bad ecopolitical choices?
like having unprotected 
unmasculine sex
instead of going to the loyal consumer mall,

Not really reflecting on
wider and deeper context
like True Faith
and Healthy Happiness
monotheistically delivered
monopolistically endowed
StraightWhiteMale privileged
monoculturing LeftBrain transcendent
AnthroDivine judgment
falling shy
of unconditional 
polyculturally intelligent
compassionate polypathic regard

As win/lose divinely inspired Capital investments
support PatriarchalGod's purely patriotic hierarchy
not-so-blindly selecting
who deserves Restorative Win/Win Justice
second
and third
and fourth conversion chances

And who should not
escape Lose/Lose Retributive Dissociative UnJustice
(cooperative values repression, 
benign social-systems suppression, 
chronic universal health-care oppression, 
climatic distress depression)

A social sympathy
and cooperative competence 
so thinly simpering
judicial powers continue uncomfortably scampering
to throw away personal freedom keys
with polarized 
dispassionate 
rhetorical Disdain

Icing on Earth's soggy cake
for feeding climate rabid
suspicious
angry
traumatized 
lose/lose humorless 
and senseless
and un-woke anti-green-ecofeminist
anthro-victims,
brought to us by empowered producers and 
too-prolific consumers 
of UnCivil Othering.

To get out from under-cussed non-classedness,
must I truly choose
between circumstantial equality
of ecological Voices
for resonant healthcare,

Or personal theological-felt internal Choices
for resilient EarthMother wealthshare?

Do natural
polyculturally robust 
healthcare systems
not co-arise egowealthy 
green EarthPeace,
and longterm sacred family heritage
unconditionally unguarded eco-investments?

So ego yes,
and, equitably speaking
not eco-no,
I guess,
answers to my oppressed prayers
by our liberal lover circumstances
and my conservational personal
integrating/desecrating
inserting v receptive
either Saint 
or Sinner,
Sad
or Winner Choices

Do LeftBrain ignore
Both systemic conserving 
concave circumstances
And internal liberating 
convex complex intuitions

RightBrain questioning 
interdependently unrecognized
economic and political
WinWin ecstatic NonVoices.

Waiting to be cooperatively
recovered
uncovered
discovered multicultural values
of healthy trust
and EarthWealth optimizing safety.