Love Poem: Child's Sweetest Misery
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Written by: Ida Otayde

Child's Sweetest Misery

Cold touch of wind; lullaby-like i feel
As i think of Someone who's culpable on me being like this
I am now a strange basin, quietly confused and loudly worried
All that fills me is a little pain, a big piece of misery

I never thought of this, being a woman of reckless thoughts
Someone who only thinks and got nothing to work
Somehow it's the sweetest surprise that grasped my whole life
That I miss Someone whom i know i can never live without

Time runs as if it is restless and burdened
Without You, I'm all alone, in silence but miserable
Can smile a bit, yet in my eyes there's a point of grief
A puppet away from its Master, feels like an orphan with himself

Deep breathe i caught, speaks my whole thought
I wanna meet you again though in the end of eternal road
Even in my empty dream, still I am waiting for You
Whispering Your Name, hope you could hear it too

I miss the time when I speak with You, confessing my all
Giving You my whole weights and surrendering my soul
All I have that time is You in my entire world
Yet, contentment and happiness are what You have brought

I miss the time when i fight for You, with all Your Might
I won every battle with Your Words as my knife
Into Your hands only I depend and I never lose a single fight
And now, I ask myself, how did I afford living You behind?

I miss the time when I sing for You with all of my strength
My heart shouted praises each time I say Your Name
Even though I speak the bestest word one can ever hear
It can never be compared by how You made me feel

LORD, I miss You so bad, please! show me Yourself
Now that I lack Your Presence I lose my whole self
I wanna feel You again, You're all that I desire
Foolishly seeking for an undeserved loving grace

Realization trapped me that i've done everything wrong
I know it's never too late for me to come back home
My Father, this time, no one could ever snatch me from You
You have saved me just once, but it's a lifetime redemption

My LORD, my GOD, accept Your desperate child
I'm begging for restoration of strength from Your hands
Your words give me life, conceal them again in my heart
As I obey Your command and recognize Your sacrifice