Chasing My Dream
On this 3rd day
of 2011
I sit and wait
hoping to see you
no matter how briefly.
What a horrible day
you've had,
and you're week
is shaping up
to be another long,
tiring challenge
to your mind, emotions,
spirit and body.
Would that I could
help build you up
in all the areas
of your life
that need healing,
but that doesn't
appear to be
God's plan for me
in your life.
So, what is His purpose
for me in your life?
I'd like to think I know
but I don't
and it hurts me
not to be able
to do what I want
for you in your life.
I seem to be left
with little more
ability to help you now
than I had 20+ years ago
and I'm still
chasing my dream
to live with
and love you
for the rest of our lives.
I am so very tired
of dreaming
about us being together
but what else
can I do for now?
I don't want you
to stop needing me
and I won't
just leave you again
as either of those actions
would break my heart,
so I'll not think
of them.
But my concern
for you, your health
and well being
is so strong lately
it's hard to focus
on anything else.
Maybe this is wrong,
but taking care
of you has always
been part
of this dream
I'm still chasing
minute by minute,
hour by hour
each and every day.
I plead with God
for my dream
to somehow
come into reality
in this year of 2011.
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