Cast Not Fault
Hand me your love when I want to flee.
Give love when I want to hate.
Hand me strength when I wish I were dead.
Calm me when I worry.
Love me when I hate.
Love me whether I am good or bad, sad or mad.
Be my tower of strength.
My hope, my life.
Be everything for me.
I stand on a mountain and plea for help only to hear the wind blow.
No one is there nor here.
I am alone deserted by everyone and no one cares.
Not you, not I, not her, not him.
I call and not a soul answers.
I beg and am turned away.
You who should care don’t.
I turn away face the interior of my heart.
I reach for the key and then I go to my heart.
There I stand at the edge.
I hold the key tight and then release it to the hate of my soul.
Who is to blame if I hate?
You?
You who have cast fault on me?
You who judges before knowing?
You, who have been heartless?
You who label before understanding?
NO!
“Thou shall not judge before knowing” yet you have.
Blame, hate, despise me I do not care.
Yet as I stand at the edge of the cliff cast not fault if I jump.
If I jump who can blame me?
Not you for you have not loved me.
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