Broken
Why? Why?
do you always mess with my head
always screwing me around and making me scared
Why do you put on a act and pretend your all sweet
and then turn around and start screaming
like its all normal
Im frightened
Im worried
of what youve done to me
and of what you will do
I dont know who you are
I never have and never will
Will you hurt me again
and leave me in throbbing pain
Will i be able to pick myself up again from your mistakes
and feel so much more heartache
You destroyed my soul
you killed me
made me so weak
and lost
You didnt care to think of how i was
You just hurt me
bruised me
and crushed me
I felt so alone
and scared of being me
like i always had to try to be someone
other than this
I tried to impress you
please you and love you
But all i got was beatings and bruises
I cried so many tears
and i felt so useless
worthless
and ugly
All those lies you drilled into my head
made me so insecure and broken
You never thought of how i was coping
I looked to you constantly for guidance
but you always put me down
and made sure that i knew that i was worth nothing
That i had no future or hope
that my dreams were nothing
and that i would never succeed
You neglected me
from food, from peace, from love
You neglected me from money
and didnt give me things i needed
You took away my soul
and laughed while you were doing it
You loved taking photos of me crying
because you received joy out of me suffering
Feeling so vulnerable and broken
i wanted someone to understand me
and stick by me
someone that would love me and never leave me behind
I needed someone to look after me and stick by me
and help me to be strong when i was weak
Everyone around just watched you laugh
they all saw it happening
they all saw the suffering
And there you go again
destroying my soul
and then manipulating me
so that i would forgive you
the only way you would provide
I was so young
and you depended on me through it all
telling me about my mothers secrets
telling me all these lies
making me feel sorry for you
when all i wanted to do was be a kid
You didnt eat,
you didnt sleep
all you did was work
and expected me to look after you
You didnt care if i starved
and was sad
and afraid
and broken
You just wanted to be happy with yourself
and enjoy the life you have chosen
You hurt her so much
and i just wanted to shoot you
I have to pick up all my broken pieces because you broke me
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