Love Poem: Bemused and Flustered -Part 2-
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Bemused and Flustered -Part 2-

The messages you send me puts me on Cloud 7…
Sweet love of mine…
That’s why I meet up with you at 7-eleven…
You’re looking fine…
Not everything lasts – I’ve learned…
All the messages – all have burned…
In the fire of time
In the fire of time
The stars above us are drizzling with delightful light
I’m fighting this solitary war with my divine flight
I wish you can make me feel as high as the sun in the sky
Understand that I’ve been through so much – that’s why I’m shy
I listen to music for several reasons – 
Those reasons reflect my tastes that are like the change of seasons
I can only dream of you for only a split second
Our bond is oh so fond and beyond…
Amazing
Wouldn’t you think so too?

Flustered, but I’m moving on from here
I can’t wait to hold you oh so dear
Haunted by the forgettable dreams I’ve been having lately
Taunted by the chorus of voices in my head 
Losing control due to the dangerous dread,
Piling up in my head…in my mind’s eye, I’ve been feeling free

Sunsets are awakening in your sunrise eyes
Sunsets are awakening in your sunrise eyes – 
Meaning lies are replaced with truth and it starts with the reflection of your dark brown eyes
They tell me that you love me to the extreme
Now, that lifts me up – you make me beam with a higher self-esteem
You’re the one that I love
I sometimes feel that it was meant to be
You’re my bat and I’m your dove
I’m in captivity, yet I feel so free…I just wanted to be happy,
But, in all honesty, I feel crappy
Sorry, I’m flustered…these wings once fluttered…
All this negativity is like clutter
To my mind…I didn’t hear what you just muttered…
You’re as smooth as yellow butter
These grapes of wrath I have mustered…I’m like an expired mustard –
I’ve grown bitter 
Yet, a little wittier than you…
I’m like the cat’s litter – 
I am clustered with filth and its residue 

Flustered, but I’m moving on from here
I can’t wait to hold you oh so dear
Haunted by the forgettable dreams I’ve been having lately
Taunted by the chorus of voices in my head 
Losing control due to the dangerous dread,
Piling up in my head…in my mind’s eye, I’ve been feeling free

Was I even free in the first place? Tell me the answer, Lord, or I’ll be left without a trace
Look into my eyes and there, you’ll find my empathy towards you and you only
Glory and grace is what I’m running after like an almost-done race…flustered because I’m a disgrace
I’m flustered because I don’t know the difference between belonging and being the lonely

I don’t fit in…
I never did and never will…
Sorry again…
I’m positive that I’ll fulfill your thrill…
You touched me beyond words could ever describe, so make me unflustered and make me feel happiness beyond belief
Emptiness wears off like old skin, shedding into new skin
I need you and I want you – I’m obsessed with you, depression and happiness…these feelings are strong – God, please give me relief
Anguish and resentment, stop making a fool out of me…wondering where you’ve been,
The mind that held on to such knowledge
All I need is solace solitude because I’m on edge
I’m positive that I’ll fulfill your thrill if I hike up this hill…
Sorry again…
I’m just flustered that you’re not here – but, I must be still…
I don’t fit in…invest in my engrained embarrassment
I blame it on my coveting heart of resentment