Love Poem: Beauty and the Beast

Beauty and the Beast

Beauty and the Beast
For our tortured love fairytale 
Too
Was based on famine or feast

You were the sum of everything
My Moon and Sun
My purpose for waking up each day

Better to have loved and lost
But at what cost
I would be better off dead than without you
You were the glue that held my future together
You were my only pleasure in which I treasured 
My unit that I used to measure happiness 
Now it defines the depth of loneliness 

I wish I had kept more of your things
Onto which to cling
I have spent so much energy
On smelling the clothes you left
To remind me of you
They are threadbare 

I miss your face
And even the hate I used to generate
The way you made me cross
But never really did truth be told
I miss your best sexy frilly knickers and Lacey Bra's
I miss your make-up on my pillow slip's 
But most of all I miss you

I miss they way you used to take over 
The couch and my half of the bed
I miss when it when used to say to me
I love you
But most of all I miss you

I miss the way you even gave me 1 final chance
Inspite of everything I had put you through
That is probably why I still miss everything about you
I miss the good times
I have even come to miss the bad times

But most of all I miss you
And that I never really got a proper chance to say
Both thank you and sorry in equal measure's 
Thank you for the memories and loving me
And sorry if I ever hurt you
I never meant to do you any harm 
It was only ever me who was wrong or at fault

Everybody told me i was warned a thousand times over
But the only way I could learn my lesson
Was by finally realizing when you left
Its over and she is never coming back
And why would she ?
I was undeserving,  uncaring and un-loving
In the end I got nothing more than I deserved.

I was a Beast to my Beauty
I guess that's why I miss her so