At the Hospital
At the Hospital
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Today as skin was torn
Off the bottom of my foot,
I yelled out and began to cry.
I thought, “How often
Do I need to prove my strength?” and
Then, for the first time in 50 years,
I heard myself
Ask God,”Why? Why?” At which I
Instantly felt ashamed, for it is mine
To accept whatever He allows.
Then, I realized I felt some anger, for
He promised to provide
The measures needed to meet the trials…
Yet I felt inadequate.
I felt angry at my beloved, my Father,
My creator, my God…
Although I knew God
Can handle anger,
For it comes
As a dimension of human love
— and in me at least, quickly passes.
My cracks He will mend.
My tears He collects.
My strength is in Him.
Our shared love is committed.
My calling on Him is eternally answered.
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(c) sally young Eslinger 10/7/21
Thanks be to God
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