And I Will Say Into the End By Bella Akhmadulina
And I will say into the end
Farewell, don't promise love forever
I'm going mad or I ascend
to madness in its highest level.
How did you feel? - You had a deal
with ruin, but it's not about it.
How did you feel? - You had to kill,
You killed so clumsily; I don't doubt it.
Oh, cruelty of the miss, there's no
forgiveness for you, body's living,
it walks, it sees the light, what for?
My body's empty and it's grieving.
My temple thinks, and thought surrounds:
my hands are fallen, there's no motion,
obliquely flock of smells and sounds
just go away without emotion.
P.S. This is my translation of poem by Bella Akhmadulina, 1960.
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