And I Ask Myself
An old man today asked me
what was my biggest fear
I replied knowing the fact
that I could die alone
& maybe never get the chance
to have a wife, kids, & call a place home.
I'm scared to fall in love again
because I been threw heartache,
fake love, & infatuation
it's frustrating
knowing you been searching so hard
for an ideal mate
& you might not find them
because even wit ya eyes open you still feel blinded.
I'm afraid wit the girl I'm with
she'll realize I'm just another nigga
wit a kind heart but a lot of emotions
but all I want from her is to share her feelings wit me
but how?
If I make her so irritated
why are we together, matter fact
why am I contemplating
what am I chasing
love or just another chick I fell for
what's it all for
respect, love, & everything more.
She almost hurts me 40% of what she says
it's more to a nigga like me
than just opening up ya legs.
What do I fear?
being hurt again
I lost a few family members
a lot of friends
look where I come from
look where I been
what's my opinion?
how can I let females
hurt me time and time again.
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