Alone Inside
The thoughts of worse times, reality faced
Through my head the terror's been traced
From years and years of neglect and denials
Emotional baggage that goes on for miles
Deep inside the pain is real and alive
I can't smile, no matter how hard I strive
Outside I'm calm, you'd never see the pain
All night the tears just pour like rain
When I close my eyes, I see my mistakes
No good luck, no favors, and no breaks
Everything I know I've learned on my own
The rules of family and life weren't shown
Bitterness rises up like bile in my throat
The crap around my heart is like a moat
Locking out love and trapping in the pain
Sometimes I even wonder if I am still sane
I look at the stars, the moon, and the sun
And try to remember when it all begun
Long ago before I could protect myself
I was put up like a toy on a shelf
Trusting everyone, getting heart broke
Then I decided I am not a funny joke
I woke up and saw the light up ahead
And the pain and anger I finally shed
Happiness now, I can finally start to see
How true love and life are meant to be
Take it from me, for I've been there before
You'll get fed up and won't take anymore
You'll walk away without a second glance
Being wiser and smarter for the next chance
Guard your heart tightly and be very aware
Because bad people are actually everywhere
One more thing to say before I go away
Live life to it's fullest each and every day
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