Love Poem: Afraid of Forever
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Written by: Shahana Jackson

Afraid of Forever

He says he'll never let me go
I say well you never really know
two peoples lives that once were intertwined 
can suddenly start to reject and just as easily eject
he says he likes me too much for this issue to occur
I say well honey you never know what the future will hold
He held me tighter as if by saying this it meant I wanted to let go
Honestly while he was holding me in this aggressive way 
It made me ponder if things would always be this way
He says well be together forever 
Something about that statement caused me to stir
I demanded how do you know we won't fall out of love
He tried to stammer out an explanation but I didn't let him
I said so what if I get fat? 
He said I like my woman better like that
I said what if I cheat?
He said well make it work like a lot of people do
Finally I shouted this is an unreasonable expectation
Forever is not something that my vocabulary is familiar with
Yes people last for a very long time 
But the concept of forever is something I can't exactly grasp 
So your saying you want to be with me forever?
Through the rain and the storms 
Your saying well get through them together? 
All he did was nod his head and I packed my clothes
and went home to my own bed.
This man is insane I thought to myself.