Absent Night
Absent Night
storm-of-sadness
On an absent night
The stars don’t seem to care
They flicker in my mind like godforsaken candles.
I await your return
Dreading the waves of despair
Trying to melt my distressing thoughts with the
Blackness
Of time
But it is an absent night
And there is no darkness to spare
For moments held like a loosely tied string of pearls
This is frightening
In the dark I can light a torch
To find them lest they break
In nothingness they will be lost forever.
I want to erase you from myself
but I absorbed you without a trace
without a hint of knowingness
I can’t find even a faint line to erase
Your presence has been absorbed
within me
and is in me,
Like a nomad it roams
laughing at my attempts to isolate and purge.
Why you?
I carefully dress up my thoughts of you
Into air-dropped packets
To satiate my physical needs
And then a stray thought comes
and tips over my mind
and its carefully drawn conclusions.
My thoughts rage again, trying to hide
In blackness, in the dark…
But it is an absent night.
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