Abandoned friend
#My_abandoned_friend
Focused so much on my grind and neglected you, tossed you so far, less I knew how wild and unsafe this universe was, today i saw my contributed evil deeds, evident all over your face, hardly recognized the once illuminative smile, could hear the fading and in crawling stage the laughter you made,
realised how wrong have I totally been, for looking only where I was headed, forgot that I once vowed to friend you come what may, so much has this life snatched from you, so much i ran out of objects around me when counting , so shameful i call myself a friend, your friend in particular,
saying this with shame ,today I met a friend, a once good one for that matter, after so much many years, realised how savaging indeed this life was capable, so lil of what was,
realised how much life has taken its toll over you, so much only so little in your presence I could familiarize, realised how irreparable, time and space has taken away from our friendship, so bad my peace still restless,
so much has this time taken from you, so little I could still say we once had, so fearful and scary I wish had never left our friendship station, for all was just picture perfect, now the future painting we jointly painted, has just few pieces of what was, so bad one would deny if that was what was,
how bad I blame myself for leaving so early, I mean chasing my dreams by self, how selfish was it of me, today I saw the scattered pieces of that friendship, broken so bad one would barley noticed its once existence, realised how failed I have failed you, how selfish was I in my hustle, so selfish even in my prayers, though I call myself a believer
like a mirror, she carried so much broken pieces in her smile and there lied my failure, I have failed not only her but our friendship, like Judas Escariot, my deception weigh so heavy upon my conscience, my abandoned friend
#Poetic_Ink
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