As I glance out the tinted window of the hearse, a cool drop of sweat beats downward towards my lower back, sending shivers from my neck to the very bottom of my spine. I clench my fists as I try to hold back tears; doing everything I can to imagine myself in a place far from here. I wish that this was nothing more than a dream gone wrong. Silently for the first time since his death I gasped for a quick breath of air, letting every emotion that I’d ever felt run through my body. Unexpectedly a tear trickles down my face in what seemed like a rhythmic pattern. The once meaningless tears I’d grown use to turned into massive sobs, heavy and heartfelt leaving me with an emptiness unknown to any kind I’d ever felt before.