What If..?
What if I could tell you all the pain you put me through?
Would you tell me what I wanted to hear, for me, could you be true?
What if you hadn’t cheated, would we be together now?
In love and truly happy, never would we row.
What if you hadn’t lied, would we be living together?
In a house filled with happiness, dreaming of our forever.
What if you hadn’t let me down, would I ever feel such sadness?
Would I have been so consumed with grief, despair and almost madness?
What if you hadn’t walked away while my heart was silently breaking,
Alone, my body filled with dread, my empty hands just shaking?
What if you hadn’t said those words that destroyed our love and more?
Would I still be crying now, would my emotions feel so raw?
What if you could turn back time, would you still do things the same?
If you knew then what you know now, would you hurt me all over again?
What if you could tell me you were sorry, you were such a fool?
That you wish things could be different if you hadn’t been so cruel?
Could we put it all behind us and start again tomorrow?
Could we turn our backs forever on shame, regret and sorrow?
Would I be able to trust you every time you were out of sight?
Or would doubt and suspicion call to me in the dead of the night?
Would history repeat itself? Of me, would you ever tire?
Would you show your colours once again- cheat, heartbreaker, liar?
I’ll never find these answers, but one thing I know for sure-
For you, there is no second chance; to you I’ve closed the door.
For though I may still love you and wish for a happy ending,
I couldn’t survive another fall, from you I am still mending.
Our time together has come and gone, I know this fact for certain,
For us there will be no repeat performance, this is our final curtain.
So I’m moving on from 4 years of pain to better times ahead.
I’m shaking off the ghosts of the past, the person I was is now dead.
Maybe one day I will show you these words so you can understand
Why our love is gone forever to a far and distant land.
Please never think that I do not care or my heart is filled with hate,
What’s done is done, it cannot be changed, it was meant to be; it was fate.
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