Love Poem: Under the Pier Ii

Under the Pier Ii

Why here?
     Why this way ... is it a message just for me??
          No note, no signs of impending doom ...
     You were all smiles this morning, mundane habits adhered to

          "Have a good day, Sweetness - I love you"
     Nose rub and a kiss, (the kiss WAS deeper than usual)
And in your eyes ... something ... odd
     A touch of darkness, distance, chill ...

     It didn't strike me then, but now ... a sick feeling deep-down
Oh, dear God, did I miss something?!?
     Not like me ... not at ALL ...
          I'm usually so perceptive, so attuned - especially to you ... to US

     Your cold skin, shiny porcelain in the moonlight
          So horridly beautiful, so exquisitely horrid, (I retch)
     They place you tenderly in a plastic bag, zipping it slowly
I will hate that sound now ... forever.