I Used To Be
I used to be a geek.
There's nothing bad about that.
But I just want you to see the drastic changes i've been through.
You see I used to be alone.
No friend in sight. No one cared about the girl who stayed quiet and silent.
I was in a deep depression cause no guys would look at me.
I was completely envious and jealous of the girls who seeked attention and received it.
Thoses girls used to be my worst enemies.
It's funny how they became my best friends.
How quickly they came once I become ok with myself.
Once I stopped caring so much what others thought.
Once I got a sense of fashion.
People flock to those who embrace themselves, people flock to people they can relate to.
Now I don't want to make it all sound like an instant transformation cause truly to get these
people's acceptance I had to change everything that I stood for.
Change my quietness to loud and my shyness to bold.
Change my baggy pants in to tight and my no name in to designer.
Strighten out the naps and lotion up the bruises.
I had to throw all my mixed up emotions in a closet and lock the door for good.
Now the new me seems like all i've ever been.
The new me seems like home.
Now I critcize girls who look how I used to be... now i'm the dime piece every guy wants.
Now i'm the girl with tons of friends and it's not just image.
They really truly have embraced me.
But there are sometimes in my new life and my body that I wish I could go back to that
invisable geek because sometimes being under a daily microscope gets tiring. Sometimes I
wish I could go back to how I used to be. But things can never be the same. This is from a
former known geek.
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