Love Poem: A Prisoner of One's Self

A Prisoner of One's Self

My eyes are welded shut like an iron gate 
Just trying to hold back the tears you anticipate 
You see right through me like a window
Wactching me change like weather from rain to cold snow

I know latley I am so pale, cold, and white
I still want you in me though the window is closed so tight
Some times that look is a stone that shatters glass
Some times your smile warms me till my troubles pass

Your warm heart can melt my tears away
And when your around I go from December to May
But at other times dead memoreys make up my fall
And when I try to love you I always stall

You can break this glass but there are still bars of steel
No matter how much I love you, I can't change how I feel 
A prision of seasons is what I am stuck inside 
I can not escape to love you, but know how I tried