Love Poem: A Chest of Pain
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Written by: Jennifer Eller

A Chest of Pain

I can't seem to forget the neglect
Nor the ache of my heart
I can't make the hurts disappear
The sorrow just wont go.

I can't remember a time
When you were even there
I remember only a little girl, 
Who only had her tears.

Words like I love you 
Weren't often said
No, there were no praises
No sweet words to tuck me in.

I can't remember a time 
When you ever did what you said
I can only see you walking.

I never knew a real mother
Because you never really were there

There were always places you had to go
And people you had to see

And you never seemed to care
If your little girl was all right
As long as you got your next fix
The world was all right.

It never seemed to bother you
If i cried myself to sleep
Because you didn't need anyone
Except your coke, weed, and  speed.

And as long as you had 
Your treasures in this world
You didn't seem to care

You never seemed to care, that is,
Until  that girl one day was gone,
And only because everyone
Knew then what was going on.

You promised that little girl
Calls and letters
But all she got was heartache
and more tears added to the others

Now this girl is older, 
shes not so little anymore
And her heart isn't so soft
Shes a bit stronger

Sheloves you with all her heart
God knows she always will
But until the day you act like a mother
You will never see her.

She'll grow a bit farther away
With each passing year
Until the little girl 
You once knew is no longer there.

You'll never have any
memories of a happy childhood
And you'll never know her 
stories of teenage years into woman hood.

No, as long as you have
Your other treasures
Life really isn't that bad.

But in the end is the price worth paying?
You've cut the rope between us
I just can't understand

Why you couldn't be my mother 
And also my friend.